My Not So Normal Life and A Few Other Things.

Hey there.  I hope you are staying safe and sane in this crazy world.  It's a lot to stomach for anyone. I can't go crazy.  I already am!        Serious question? When do you tell your family that their joking around has become hurtful?  It's to the point where I feel like I am in high school again, trying to compete for their love and attention. I am 45 yrs old and feel like I am treated like a child at times. I am told that I am too sensitive and that I take things out of context, that I should just take it, and know they are playing.  Every night it's a roast the hell outta mom till she cries or locks herself in the bathroom so no one would see.  it's not like anyone would care to be honest.  I could cry for hours and no one would even flinch.  When did I become invisible, and so small that it doesn't matter if I am even around?  I am ignored when I am trying to be a mother, I am ignored when I try to let people know how I feel. I am beyond frustrated.  I hav

I found this from April25th 2019 and somehow it never posted so I thought I would just add it here because I know that a lot of you are struggling this way also. You are not alone at all. I am starting to realize that sometimes even the sweetest kind of person can belittle you and hurt you with their words.  I recently had a day where I was told "Try to Keep Up" on the day I was struggling to walk, and in the most pain due to lack of pain medication s. It cut me to my core.  I would like to think that I am a good person and kind to everyone I meet. But recently it's been pointed out that people feel like I make whatever is being talked about and turn it back to ME. I don't feel like the world is about me by far, I try to make everything about other people and leave me out of it all.  I am not the kind of person that I want to have the spotlight on myself, it makes me uncomfortable because I want to do things right. I know it's crazy being a "Leo" it

                                                                                                                 June 2020 I don't know how much longer I can handle this pain, hurt and so-called life?  I use to be able to work, have money for things I wanted, walk for miles, dance in my kitchen, workout, stand for hours @blueoctoberband Concerts, have girls night out with my friends, plan amazing trips with the husband, Not be so obsessed with how I look, feel beautiful, sexy and wanted.  And  so much more, Someone asked me to do a post on what my day consists of so I thought why not.. Trust me it's nothing to fun or fun at all. Let's get into it. 6-7 a..m *   my days are waking up after only 2 hrs of sleep. Unfortunately feeling pain and Nausea,  my legs don't move right away so I'm barely able to make it to the bathroom. After that I'm exhausted and out of breath so Back in bed I go. I try to eat crackers or something to help with nausea and to take my m