My Not So Normal Life and A Few Other Things.

                                I need help!  This word is not used that often with any mental illness or any diseases. Because of your pride You dont want to be a pity party or you feel like a burden so you keep those thoughts to yourself not even a Dr. could get you to open up . With Lupus I have heard a lot of things but this caught my eye.   When you let someone know you are struggling and you Need Help , how do they react?  Are they loving and try to help or they act like its nothing.  How do you cope? How do you stay Sane?  Your body is broken, your quality of life is seriously garbage and you are so tired of it all. What Then? I can relate a bit on this , I know at times my family plays around . But when is the point you say enough? You beg and plead for help in your mind. Do you dare say it out loud ? Or Fear of what may happen? you need help finally comes out and you don't get the answer you were looking for or they just "sigh' or "huff"  a

This summer seemed like it was here and then gone right before my eyes.  I am very slow on getting my post up for this month's ipsy bag so please bare with me. Ok? This is a fun aqua shade pouch with a zipper, it's washable so you can take it to the beach and not worry about it being ruined.                              The Theme is - Dive Into Summer                                       Let's get started Jayedyn's Bag 1st-   1st Sample- Full Size   Eyeliner pencil  24-7   from the *Brand Beauty 4 Real  Shade -Whisky- Warm Brownish Shade $9 This is a gel liner it's highly pigmented, supposed to be long-lasting, and waterproof.  It also has vitamin E so it will nourish and condition the lid. It is retractable so no sharpening needed (seems like a good product but she hasn't used it yet) 2nd sample Full size   was a concealer in the Light/Med shade from the brand Smashbox  $25 This is a waterproof, hydrating, oil-fre

Such hurtful words are being said to the chronic illness family.  First off it's not in our heads it's real. I couldn't make this stuff up or would Want to! Second* Just because we are sick doesn't mean we are Dead.   With that being said.  It just means we are way more sensitive to the things you say to us or your actions show.  We Already feel Worthless, Useless, and a Huge Burden on everyone anyway.   Just know we don't want to feel like this but have "NO choice" in the matter.  People can say things not meaning to buy it comes across different to us.. I have heard of even the strongest marriages collapse because of communication it's either too much or lack of..  (I also know each side have a story to tell)  But please  Remember we are still breathing ,we want to fight but sometimes are bodies won't let us.... we want to be included, even if we can't go. Just the courtesy of asking is enough for us to feel normal because w