My Not So Normal Life and A Few Other Things.

  I don’t understand why this life is so hard for me? Why when I get sick my body completely shuts down and my insides make me feel like I’m dying. I have always struggled like this, a common cold knocks me out for days, sometimes weeks.  I am still havocked by pain every second of the day and the only way my body can handle this is by sleeping. if I am so lucky. Did I do something so horrible that God is punishing me? Do I still believe in God?  I am failing at being a warrior, a fighter, a mother, and a wife  I feel like my family deserves so much better.  Why is the pain for me so unbelievably hard? why can’t I force my body to do what it needs to feel better? I have tried so hard to get out of bed and move, to be more present in life, to just try. I have willed myself that I can do it, only to be bedridden hours later. My body is a mess inside and out and it’s breaking me down even further.  My heart breaking and I so want to be able to handle it all bu...

I hope everyone had an amazing month. And “Lá fhéile Pádraig sona dhuit!”“ Which means Happy St.Patrick's Day to you! Mine was a lil tough because of my Lupus and St.Patrick's Day is always hard for me that is the day my Grandma on my mom's side passed away. This one i was in bed for it was a rough time with my lupus and pain . BUT.... Other than that Let’s jump into the March Bag I will be doing Jayedyn’s Bag first. The Bag for the Month- is all about Women and it’s filled with brand products that female’s founded and girl boss staples. #ipsySHEro The bag is cute and it says on the front And off she went to change the world. This makes me sad and proud at the same time. Just because my only daughter is leaving for college in the Fall and I know that it will come faster than I would like. I am trying to spend as much time as my Lupus will let me. It’s not an easy process for me, and I hate it. But enough on that let’s re...

Here is my review on the bag for the month of October  *the bag is an adorable red clutch with an embossed masquerade mask.  The theme for the month is  "Who said nights were for sleep" #ipsyafterdark  We hope this bag inspires endless after-dark adventures.                                Stay wild, moon child.  I have decided to start with Jayedyn's first this time.  1 st product is intensively precise eyeliner  from the brand Aurora the shade is a rich brown shade. This is a felt tip liquid liner you can glide this on to make the perfect cat eye.   Removes easily without tugging on those precious lids.    2 nd product is a sample of the highly coveted shape tape contour concealer. This is a full coverage product it brightens under eyes. It’s a m...