My Not So Normal Life and A Few Other Things.

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I finally got my Ipsy Glam bag for December and was pleasantly surprised with what was in it for the month. Some Old favorites and some new ones!  Lets look into the products ! Clark's Botanicals - Deep Moisture Mask This is a rejuvenating and revitalizing mask . This can be used for all skin types . It helps with hydration .  Over use it will diminish the look of  fine lines and wrinkles and leave the complexion looking younger . The full size is 1.7 oz and goes for $72 .00 (I have used this product for a few nights now and i love what it is doing for my skin . I put it on after i have cleansed my face . It feels tightening to me and when i awake in the morning my face is slightly glowing like it just drank a ton of water. So far no side effects with my Lupus Rash . Love this stuff .. ) Peter Lamas - Intensive Repair Hand Cream - nourishing Vitamins and extracts to help renew and protect your hands . Shea Butter  to smooth rough skin.  Grape seed, Almond a

I feel like I need to share some thoughts I have had recently so bare with me. It’s been a few days of insomnia, intense pain and a lot of sleeping during the day.  I mean like all day, night etc. It  Feels like I am wasting my life away sleeping and i hate it. I try so hard to get myself up and make an effort to do something, anything to feel normal But what the norm for others is nowhere near my norm. And my body is in control. When you suffer from Lupus it makes things like bathing, dressing, brushing your hair, laundry and house cleaning a chore and I am sad to admit this but I do require help from time to time even to get to the bathroom. Lupus is the most unscheduled, unorganized disease and it doesn't care what you have planned. My day is dependent on how I feel.  People say that you have to be positive about it and take control.  I wish it were that easy. The reality is... If I hurt I can't Move, if I am sick I can't move, if my body hurts I Don&

So i have had some time to review the products i got in the November Glam Bag from Ipsy  and there are some Hits and Misses I have discovered …. So lets get into this..  These are my honest opinions and not everyone will feel the same way but this is how the products worked for me .. I will be rating them with Stars *****SmashBox Mascara –  This was just a small trial size with a lot of product  Which is awesome ….  I Normally would  first use my Go to Base which is   Revlon Get up and Grow lash mascara but since I wanted to get a 1st impression I did not .   I have Sparse Blonde Non -Existent lashes that point downward so of course I used my lash curler,  now upon opening the tube my first impression is  The mascara wand is big, Dark Black .. The mascara is a wet formula but it dries fast So You can build up to the perfect coverage  .  I had to coat my lashes twice . Not only did it darken my blonde lashes but it seemed to get the ones that were hiding . This is great

Lupus doesn't make life easy it tends to pull you down (a lot)   just when you think you are okay and able to do stuff...  it sends in a flare from hell. It starts with pain everywhere , dark butterfly rash all over your face and sometimes other parts of your body.  It makes normal thing like working a dream . it makes cleaning a house  an Impossible task and  laundry ,  don't even try it. It can even make getting dressed a chore Because believe it or not my clothes hurt me.  The pain is too much to handle.  It makes moving so unbearable you have know choice but  to stay in bed . So what do you do when you are stuck in bed? Sleep a bit ,Watch some Netflix or TV  ( Sure why not you get all into the show and not 15 minutes  of watching something and they are walking and doing normal everyday things.  The  guilt and depression sets in and you start to think ..... Am i  never going to be able to do that again?  Why is this my life ?  ETC .. (ya know the normal crap th

Found this today and thought how appropriate .This explains a lot of how I feel daily. Yesterday I was able to work with my husband filing,lifting,standing and felt good .Today I am in bed and can't even keep my eyes open and the pain is intense . It's definitely a rest day . Hopefully this explains a bit more about this disease . Hugs. Misty 💋 Sometimes you just want someone to understand what you are feeling and just be there for you, without offering suggestions or judging you. Yes, sometimes when I say “I’m okay”, I want someone to look into my eyes and see the truth. May be hug me tight and say, “I know you are not”. I sometimes want to know that someone cares enough to see the truth that I am trying so hard to hide… But if you don’t look deep, you may not see, because I have hidden it deep and it is not for everyone to see. “Oh! You don’t look sick!” Yes, these words can leave you feeling irritated and sometimes it upsets you. Some people by their insensi

Where to start. I am not a writer and not an expert on Blogging so please be kind ... These are my words and my experiences. What is Lupus? Wikipedia describes it as- Systemic lupus erythematosus, often abbreviated as SLE or lupus, is a systemic autoimmune disease in which the body’s immune system mistakenly attacks healthy tissue. There are many kinds of lupus. The most common type is systemic lupus erythematosus, which affects many internal organs in the body. SLE most often harms the heart, joints, skin, lungs, blood vessels, liver, kidneys, and nervous system. The course of the disease is unpredictable, with periods of illness alternating with remissions. I describe it as- What the Heck happened to my Life? Why am I always in hellish pain? Why do I feel sick all the time disease, Instead of being able to do normal things I am stuck to the How do I feel today and the can I do that won’t need three or more days of recovery time?  My life is now dependent on how I feel e