My Not So Normal Life and A Few Other Things.

Having a disease like lupus is the most stressful thing in the world!  It's funny, How you aren't supposed to stress about this crap and all you do is stress. Why?  You stress that you are not good enough to work? You stress when you have to take a day off from work.  You stress that you are gonna cause a Financial burden on your family? Because now you can't work.  You worry about if your spouse even finds you sexy anymore? You stress about your hair thinning, your eyebrows and lashes falling out, and the rashes that come along with it all.  You worry about if you are still pretty. At least I do. . You worry about your looks and the weight gain that has come on from bedrest, immobility and medications. You stress that you are getting worse ?  You worry and Stress about every new symptom?  You worry about your family?  You  wonder why they  don't  include you in the day to day activities/ decisions?  It's always said in hush tones (that BTW) 

This month’s bag was interesting, to say the least, it was a cute Black and white cartoon bag with a hot pink zipper.  the thing that was different from others is  they gave you some markers (You can color it) what the heck 🤔 I didn’t think anything of this and it wasn’t something that I would do myself... or was it??? I was bored and it was sitting right there, so I picked up some markers and  This is what it ended up looking like … .. The products this month were all samples it seemed,  not too thrilled about what I got at first, but quickly changed my mind upon use. Let’s get into this … . 1 st product is a sample of- Benefits new Mascara* Bad Gal Bang Sells for $24.00 full size and $12.00 travel size https://www.benefitcosmetics.com/us/en/shop-makeup This is 36-hour Full blast volume mascara that isn’t going to go anywhere. It’s a  wet black formula.  I am not gonna test out the 36 hr. wear but as far as the claim of volume and long lasti