I don’t understand why this life is so hard for me? Why when I get sick my body completely shuts down and my insides make me feel like I’m dying. I have always struggled like this, a common cold knocks me out for days, sometimes weeks. I am still havocked by pain every second of the day and the only way my body can handle this is by sleeping. if I am so lucky. Did I do something so horrible that God is punishing me? Do I still believe in God? I am failing at being a warrior, a fighter, a mother, and a wife I feel like my family deserves so much better. Why is the pain for me so unbelievably hard? why can’t I force my body to do what it needs to feel better? I have tried so hard to get out of bed and move, to be more present in life, to just try. I have willed myself that I can do it, only to be bedridden hours later. My body is a mess inside and out and it’s breaking me down even further. My heart breaking and I so want to be able to handle it all bu...
My thoughts on my life now, dealing with SLE/Discoid Lupus, Raynaud Syndrome , the struggles I face, the new symptoms ,the medicines ,and just my journey now that I am unable to work . Also some Product reviews. searching for the right skincare and makeup that works for me to help others. Spreading Awareness through blogging. Helping and encouraging others who have been affected. WE NEED A CURE!