My Not So Normal Life and A Few Other Things.

I was super stoked to get the October bag because it just looked  adorable online . When it arrived I was pretty pleased it is BOO-tiful The bag is pink, character designed with a black ghost zipper  It has witches, magic potions and vampire teeth just to name a few.   The bag was a collab & designed by Valfre you can find out more info on her- HERE-  https://valfre.com/ The theme was *Black Magic with stylists + lynettecenee   https://www.youtube.com/user/NailsWithLynette + saythelees https://www.youtube.com/user/LeesBeans924 #OCTOBERGLAMBAG  # IPSYBLACKMAGIC -My first product I received was a sample size- lip crayon in the shade - Florence Fig from the brand *TREStique This is a fun little product that sells for $28.00 online-  https://trestique.com/products/lip-crayon     The product you buy includes a  lip balm in the bottom to use as a moisturizing primer or to  add a  shiny finish....

Living with Lupus is a daily fight for me  it's getting harder and harder for me to push through. I am exhausted both mentally and physically, I am beyond fatigued, and I feel and look like i was run down by a diesel. Most days I will get up and brush my hair just to put it back in a messy bun .  I will wash my face and apply sunscreen /moisturizer and if i am feeling up to it Makeup . But Most of the time I just want to sleep , dream of my life without this disease.  I am mad that this is effecting me so bad and that other people are able to work, play and even have a life . I hate staying at home, But i know i can't do the things like i use to .  I hate everyone who say's they just push on through, Like i am not trying too ?  I hate the judgement and whispers at functions or even the grocery store .   I am not the child that my parents adore, I am not the sister in law you want to hang out with , I am not the friend you want .  I ...